Well yesterday morning I had high hopes for myself but around noon things started slowly shifting south and then quickly picked up in to the evening hours. To say I had a bad day was to say the least.
I had plans to attend one last Christmas family meetup this past Sunday but got rescheduled to Thursday because we had all been sick and were still getting over it on Sunday. Well for some strange reason my Aunt decided we should meet at Pizza hut. I knew this ahead of time and tried to prepare myself mentally for eating at a pizza buffet only 3 days back in to my routine. I started out great. Then we sat there for awhile longer and so I got up for another plate. Then they were still gabbing on and on about random stuff so I got another plate. Then another. I don't want to even know how many calories were consumed. Of course they weren't all pizza. I did get lots of cottage cheese and peaches. I had carrots and pickles and tomatoes as well. I did have my fair share of pizza and desert pizza though, too.
I got some pretty devastating news later in the day and that's when things began to entirely spiral out of control. I ate and ate and ate. I knew better. I kept telling myself that just because I had ruined the earlier part of the day was no reason to continue sabotaging myself. Mentally, I knew exactly what I needed to do. Physically, I couldn't stop myself from drowning my sorrows in food. Which of course only upset me more. I then became upset because of ruining my own day and that just made matters worse. I wanted to exercise all day but never once got around to it.
That was yesterday. I admit I was too ashamed to come blog about it at the time. However, I've always said here that I want to share my true journey. The good and the bad. I knew I would be telling on myself here today.
Today has been sooo much better. I again had to leave the house but this time I kept things under control. I ate a boiled egg and an apple for breakfast. A few hours later I had a granola bar for a snack. At lunch my mom stopped to get Mcdonald's for Jett but I told her I couldn't eat there so we got our lunch at subway. I refrained from getting the extra tasty bread and just chose wheat. I then made sure to order the lowest calorie sandwich I could find on the menu. I had turkey and ham and even held the cheese for a change. I chose mustard as my dressing to cut calories there, too. I was proud of myself for those decisions and enjoyed my sandwich even though I could smell the strong aroma of Mcdonald's fries in the back seat the whole time.
When we got home I stepped on the elliptical and then also did some time on the treadmill. I had popcorn for a snack and then took off for a stroll down my neighborhood with my fiance and babygirl. I am currently sitting at 637 calories and wondering what I should have for dinner now. :)
Anyways though... sometime today as I was lost in thought while walking I decided that I have a new motto for myself. If you didn't sweat, then you didn't try hard enough.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Feeling good
Day two of being back in the habit. I feel good. I stayed around the 1200 calorie mark yesterday and didn't feel overly hungry at any one point during the day. I am a little surprised I wasn't even tempted to have a soda at all. I did consider lots of tempting food options and had to tell myself no not that, do this instead about ten times, lol. But the drinking situation was under control. Nice. I would have expected to get a caffeine headache at the least but I never noticed one.
This morning I ate 2 more eggs and the last of the turkey bacon. I'll have to head to the store later to get more along with a few other things anyways. I'm at 230 calories for breakfast today and haven't had any lunch yet. I planned on doing another 15 minutes on the elliptical this morning. I surprised myself yet again though when I actually stayed on for 20 minutes. At the 7 minute mark I remember sweating it and thinking oh god why isn't it like 14 mins already?! lol. When I got to 15 though I was jamming out to something on my headphones and didnt even realized I had passed it. At that point I said screw it, let's keep on pushing til 20 minutes! Took a few minutes break to switch between activities on my nexercise app but my headphones were still in so I was jamming out and moving my body around involving my arms some more in exercising and stretching. Next I hopped on the treadmill and did 15 minutes there. I was pouring sweat on there even though I was only doing a speed of 2.5 mph. I thought man I must be really out of shape. lol. Oh well. I felt really great afterwards and my cheeks were bright red. My shirt was drenched and my face was glistening. I washed my face and then got online to check facebook and post another update here. :)
Oh yeah... I know I said a few posts ago that I wasn't really liking the nexercise app, but that was because I didn't understand how it worked. Now thanks to my friend Ziona over at I want to look like a pinup explained it all to me. Apparently it's the mPoints that actually give you the rewards and I wasn't even looking at that part at all. Now that I have I'm looking forward to cashing them in for some sort of giftcard eventually.
In other news, I saw this shared on facebook yesterday and it brought me to tears. So of course I have to share it here with you guys.
This morning I ate 2 more eggs and the last of the turkey bacon. I'll have to head to the store later to get more along with a few other things anyways. I'm at 230 calories for breakfast today and haven't had any lunch yet. I planned on doing another 15 minutes on the elliptical this morning. I surprised myself yet again though when I actually stayed on for 20 minutes. At the 7 minute mark I remember sweating it and thinking oh god why isn't it like 14 mins already?! lol. When I got to 15 though I was jamming out to something on my headphones and didnt even realized I had passed it. At that point I said screw it, let's keep on pushing til 20 minutes! Took a few minutes break to switch between activities on my nexercise app but my headphones were still in so I was jamming out and moving my body around involving my arms some more in exercising and stretching. Next I hopped on the treadmill and did 15 minutes there. I was pouring sweat on there even though I was only doing a speed of 2.5 mph. I thought man I must be really out of shape. lol. Oh well. I felt really great afterwards and my cheeks were bright red. My shirt was drenched and my face was glistening. I washed my face and then got online to check facebook and post another update here. :)
Oh yeah... I know I said a few posts ago that I wasn't really liking the nexercise app, but that was because I didn't understand how it worked. Now thanks to my friend Ziona over at I want to look like a pinup explained it all to me. Apparently it's the mPoints that actually give you the rewards and I wasn't even looking at that part at all. Now that I have I'm looking forward to cashing them in for some sort of giftcard eventually.
In other news, I saw this shared on facebook yesterday and it brought me to tears. So of course I have to share it here with you guys.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Staying on track
Okay. I got a late start waking up today, but I think I'm back on track with things for now. I had 2 eggs and some turkey bacon for breakfast. I then did 15 minutes on my elliptical. The goal was 10 minutes but that's when I really started feeling the sweat build up so I thought of one of those recent pictures I have posted that says "when it starts getting tough is when it really counts" or something like that. I know Jillian Michaels says in a lot of her videos, too something like - When it hurts, that's when your body is actually pushed to make changes. If you don't push past what feels like your limits then you can't break through them.
Anyways. After that I still felt great but I was regretting not sticking in my headphones first so I went and grabbed my mp3 player and then headed out the door for a walk. The baby was still sleeping next to Sparky and Jett was inside playing with his cousins. I also went further than I originally intended with walking. Each time I got to a hill I decided I should jog up it. It was very cold outside, but I didn't wear a jacket and made sure I was walking fast enough to keep myself semi-warm. When I started feeling more chilly, that's when I'd pump my arms and legs faster. I carried a water bottle with me, so while I was walking, I was also switching it between hands and doing different triceps and biceps exercises and stretches for my chest, shoulders, and back. I even added some twists to get a little bit of midsection included. After I got home I had half a can of Progresso Steak burger soup. I've just been drinking water and sweet tea made with Splenda all morning. I almost slipped up and grabbed some sparkling red grape juice first thing today, but then I stopped myself and put it back in the fridge saying - hey don't screw up on your first day back in the swing of things! lol.
So far my calorie count for today is at 410. I am hoping to stay as close to 1200 calories per day as possible. It's been just over 4 months since Bethany was born. We are all over being sick, now. I feel like I'm getting plenty of rest again. I'm gonna loosely have a schedule each day of what I need to be doing to stay on track. I think if I work out in the mornings and get it out of the way then I wont have a million things I still need to do at night before bed and find an excuse to not do it.
Anyways. After that I still felt great but I was regretting not sticking in my headphones first so I went and grabbed my mp3 player and then headed out the door for a walk. The baby was still sleeping next to Sparky and Jett was inside playing with his cousins. I also went further than I originally intended with walking. Each time I got to a hill I decided I should jog up it. It was very cold outside, but I didn't wear a jacket and made sure I was walking fast enough to keep myself semi-warm. When I started feeling more chilly, that's when I'd pump my arms and legs faster. I carried a water bottle with me, so while I was walking, I was also switching it between hands and doing different triceps and biceps exercises and stretches for my chest, shoulders, and back. I even added some twists to get a little bit of midsection included. After I got home I had half a can of Progresso Steak burger soup. I've just been drinking water and sweet tea made with Splenda all morning. I almost slipped up and grabbed some sparkling red grape juice first thing today, but then I stopped myself and put it back in the fridge saying - hey don't screw up on your first day back in the swing of things! lol.
So far my calorie count for today is at 410. I am hoping to stay as close to 1200 calories per day as possible. It's been just over 4 months since Bethany was born. We are all over being sick, now. I feel like I'm getting plenty of rest again. I'm gonna loosely have a schedule each day of what I need to be doing to stay on track. I think if I work out in the mornings and get it out of the way then I wont have a million things I still need to do at night before bed and find an excuse to not do it.
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