Friday, January 5, 2018

Is it that time of year again?

January has showed up and that time of year where we all strive to do better has finally arrived. Looks as if I gave up on blogging back in March of last year. lol. I think mostly I just got busy and kept making excuses. I do recall taking a few progress photos in the late summer and then again in the fall in hopes to eventually start blogging again but just never quite got that far.

2017 has been a whirlwind year full of changes but all for the better in the long run I think. Work life was hectic to say at the very least. I loved my job as a preschool teacher but just after hitting the 4 year mark with the company I was with I ended up quitting as a new opportunity arose for me to become the lead Preschool teacher at a new school that carried far less work drama with other employees, particularly the owners and director. This has created a much more pleasant work environment for me and although is a bit of a strain financially, I am hopeful to view it as totally worth the change.

My new job pays the same, however since I am paid all of my hours on my check I am actually getting less money since I'm not being paid in cash for overtime and $2 in acquired raises over the years at my last job. New job does not give holiday pay when the center is closed for holidays either. Also, my new job is a 15-20 minute drive depending on traffic whereas my last job was a half mile away and I could walk there in 10 minutes. This now means that I need to use the car every day and spend much more in gas money. It also ties up the vehicle so when my husband needs to go anywhere, doctor or otherwise with the kids etc... we have to come up with a solution of either dropping me off or catching a ride with my parents or something.

I started my new job on November 16th, the very next day after I left my old one. Been there almost 2 months now and they have been super welcoming in all sorts of ways. My new center is actually run out of a church so the environment is a lot different, too. The ladies of the church spoiled all us staff with a fancy dinner one day for lunch just to say Thanks. They bought all of us gifts from bath and body works too. There are about 16 of us on staff at the moment, I think, and we did a Secret Santa gift exchange for a few weeks just before Christmas so that was really fun. We also had a company Christmas dinner out at Olive Garden paid for by our director. The parents of our kids have been really welcoming too and are also great gift givers. Parents appreciated the good job I did getting their kids to perform in a Christmas program. I have a lot more children in my classroom here but I also have a co-teacher which is a huge game changer for me as I've spent the last 4 years being the only teacher with no aides like.. ever. lol.

Well enough about work... I mean I could go on and on.. but more about my weightloss journey.

With things having finally started to improve in the rest of my life I feel like I can start to focus on my weight loss goals again. I recently saw a friend I admire and follow on Facebook who went through a similar journey as me back in 2011 where she lost a ton of weight but then put it back on and then took it back off and now she's just given birth and having to take a lot back off again. She posted some pictures about Keto something or other and so I started to google just what exactly that was. I had heard of it before but never been intrigued enough to actually look it up. Now I am starting to wonder why I hadn't looked sooner. I haven't done a ton of research yet but have been on Pinterest pinning away and am ready to try some things out.

Currently on one income, for a family of 4, I rely on government assistance to help purchase food so that I can afford rent, gas, water, electric,etc. Due to changing jobs and my renewal for assistance being up last month, I am having to jump through hoops to get them to update my information and approve me for money this month. So for the time being I don't have the means to do a large amount of grocery shopping so I can food prep, and be prepared to start on a new Keto based lifestyle diet change. So for the last several days now I've been eating whatever junk we've had here and not really changed any eating habits.

As far as working out goes. On January 1st I woke up intent on doing a workout routine and got myself dressed for it and then sat down on the couch to find a workout program on Amazon Prime. As I scrolled through several options I got really really cold and my body basically shut itself down and I decided I couldn't do anything but go get back under the covers. For the next 3 or 4 days the coldness here in Texas remained at an unreasonable level for me and all I felt like I could do when I got home from work was hide under blankets and keep my protective fat layer in place. Hah.

Today however the sunshine finally hit my face and it was actually 61 degrees outside when I clocked out from work at 4pm. I came home thinking I would ride bikes with my 9 year old son who just learned how to ride a bike in October and has been excited to do so ever since. Well I got here and found out my parents took him to Six Flags for the day. So there that idea went. I had to make a lot of phone calls after getting home, mostly having to do with checking on the assistance and getting that paperwork sorted out ASAP. By the time I finally got off the phone it was dark outside and dinner was ready. Now here I am on my ass in front of the computer but at least I am getting some blogging done to start the year off right. :D

I did see a comment on one of my old posts when I checked email after work today though and it totally brightened my mood. Part of the reason I thought I should go out bike riding with my son even. Thanks for the push! I'll try to post more often now so that I won't have this long wall of text each time.

I did take new pictures and measurements on New Years Day, by the way. I will post them in their own post tomorrow or something.

Sunday, March 12, 2017

10 weeks!!

So today marks 10 weeks back on my journey and I am feeling great still. I am more determined than ever. I may not be working out as long as I did back when I didn't have a job but I am doing what I can to keep myself moving. Yesterday I spent all day spring cleaning. I cleaned out and organized our garage all morning and then in the afternoon I went over to my parents house and went through several totes I had clothes stored in back from 2011/2012. There were clothes in there that I was wearing when I got down to my smallest but then I got pregnant and wanted to keep them for when I could fit back in them. Then there were brand new clothes in there that I bought on clearance thinking I will fit in this someday after baby. Well they have just sat there for over 5 years now. Yesterday I got rid of an entire SUV trunk full of boxes of clothes. Mostly mine. I gave away 2/3 of what I had and only kept things I just really wanted to still wear or that I never got a chance to ever and am still hoping to someday fit. It was very therapeutic to go through and see those old things. I had good memories with some and bad with others. I got rid of some that I loved simply because I felt like I got plenty of good use of them and wanted to pass them to someone else. I am trying to stop hoarding so much. My husband thinks I never throw anything out. lol. Well last night I gave away 6 boxes and two very large trash bags full of clothes. When I saw the lady I met up with to give them to had brought two teenage girls with her to help load up the back of her SUV I knew they would get a lot of use out of most of those clothes. I told her just to regift anything that she didn't want and she plans to do just that. In scale news, I have reached a new low!

I felt stuck in the 270s for so long all of February so its great to see myself coasting on down in to the 260s finally. As of March 1st I am down 5.2 lbs and we still got more than half the month to go so I am feeling really successful right now. My mom even noticed my losses on Friday night when I saw her she said I looked good and that is when I mentioned that I was down 30 lbs. My husband says he notices a huge difference too and is very proud of me. I can even see it in the mirror myself. I am looking forward to summer and fitting back in to some old swimsuits so that I can swim some of this weight off, too!

Friday, March 10, 2017

Bragging rights

For the most part, in my day to day life, I am not mentioning that I am on a weightloss journey. I go to work with the same few people I have spent the last 3 years working with each and every day and don't want to say a word to them about it until someone first says something to me about noticing my appearance has changed. The one thing I have mentioned is that I gave up soda. A few of my coworkers have said they were giving it up and I mentioned that I had done the same and left it at that. Of course every now and then I see them having one anyways and saying well I went without for 3 days or whatever... The conversation this morning that I overheard goes as follows Teacher 1, as she is trying to put a dollar in to the vending machine: I haven't had a soda in a while but today is Friday! Teacher 2: You have been doing so well, so you deserve it! My thought process is immediately - what? You are doing so well let's sabotage ourself?! But I don't say anything because well we aren't exactly close friends and I kinda feel in a mental competition with this person. Even more so because I recently took over her job. She has mentioned multiple times to everyone that will listen that she is working out or heading to the gym or whatever and then usually later in the day talking about how she is gonna eat better tomorrow because today she wants to go have mexican food for lunch or any other multitude of excuses. To myself I am thinking two things. 1, she is clearly sabotaging herself. 2, I am gonna start becoming noticeably thinner in the coming months and everyone else at work will finally be talking about how great I look. lol. She mentioned yesterday that she lost 6 lbs and everyone was like oh you look awesome. I can't tell a difference yet. I hate to be so competitive or catty, but at least its just inside my head and I am not actually running my mouth to anyone but my blog and my husband. I feel good keeping myself motivated though without having to brag to anyone about it. Of course I brag on myself here, but that's what this thing is for! :)