Sunday, December 30, 2012

Just a couple more days...

I'm so ready for the new year to get here. January feels so fresh to me for some unknown reason. Possibly because it's when I first started my journey in 2011. It was Jan 15th to be exact. I won't wait til then though. I do have another hurdle to jump though. On January 3rd we are doing a late Christmas with my aunt's family and she has asked us all to meet her a Pizza hut for lunch that day. Christmas at Pizza hut? There's a first time for everything I suppose. I'll try my best to eat light the rest of the day and control myself while I'm there. It's been years since I've actually been to one of those. I was never a fan of their pizza just because it was always so greasy. The best thing they ever did though was the stuffed crusts. Those things are irresistible. I think since it's an early on indulgence in my new journey though that it won't be so entirely devastating.

Anyways... as far as my family's stressful troubles. We finally seem to have gotten everything in order and things are taking off very quickly. If things continue to go this well for us then we should be able to get our own place sometime in the next couple months. We had to sell my car to be able to afford taking this new risk but we've already earned back every cent we spent on it so things are looking great. First, we'll buy me a new car and then we will get our own place shortly after that. I am so ready to be out of my parents house. There are about 10 people here everyday because my sister's kids are here about 4 or more days each week while she's at work. Well one person got sick the week before Christmas and now every single one of us have been sick. Including my 4 yr old son and my 4 month old baby girl. Few people are still fighting off the sickness as of today. It's frustrating. The thing I'm most looking forward to though is that whatever food is in our house is food that we have bought just for us. No one else can be eating my healthier things and no one else can leave other tempting trigger foods around that are begging me to eat them. lol.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Stress and struggles

So here it is over a month since my last post as I shamefully crawl back to the blogosphere. Things have been tough for my family as of late and when it seems like we need just one more thing to get back on top we find out after doing that one thing that now there's just one more thing standing in the way, and this has been going on, over and over again for a few months now. Somethings gotta give! That being said, I've been stressed to the max and as most of us know by now eating has been one of my stress relievers over all these years. Otherwise,  how else did I get this way? lol. I should know better by now though. I need to find other ways to relieve my stress. When I'm feeling sad or upset or "boredom hungry" I need to pick up something other than food. Some dumb bells would be a good idea but I'm having a hard time convincing myself to workout for some reason. I do have another idea I'm willing to try for now though. I've been really wanting to learn how to crochet and now I finally have all the materials since a friend gave me all her old hooks and a bunch of different rolls of yarn. I'm gonna get on a youtube and figure that out. I seen another friend learn how to crochet form youtube a couple months ago and she's already posting elaborate pictures of her badass creations every few days or so. I'm like damn... I could be that good already if I took the time to do it now that I have the supplies. My goal is to focus on fixing my eating habits for now while things in our life are still really hectic, and then hopefully soon i'll be up to working out again. I'm tired of wishing and I want to start doing. I think after the new year gets here I'll be in a better frame of mind or at least I sure hope so.