Tuesday, January 31, 2017

4 weeks in.. a little late.

So I never posted my weigh in for Sunday bu I did take the picture that morning!

281 which is still down from last week, but a tiny bit disappointing since I actually hit my 2nd goal of 280 on Thursday and then made it to 279 Friday.

However, it was expected since I went to a bridal expo with my best friend on Saturday who is getting married later this year. I am going to be her maid of honor and we sampled all kinds of catering foods and cakes while there. It was delicious and I enjoyed it. I had a much needed girls day with my bestie and do not regret the choices I have made.

This morning I was back down to 280... tomorrow I'm crossing my fingers to see the 270s again since it marks a whole new month and time to update stats! :D

I have been busting out the jump rope during gym time with my prek kids and they have actually been exercising with me the last 2 days. lol

Thursday, January 26, 2017

2nd Goal!

Today I reached 280 lbs and I am super excited to be down 13 lbs since the first of the year, 20 lbs in total. I get to change my sidebar to include today's date as a goal met. Score!

I've mentioned it before that I teach 3, 4, and 5 year olds Preschool. Well as we all know, kids say the darnedest things. In the last month I have been asked twice if I have a baby in my belly. Yesterday I was told someone's cat's belly was so big just like mine, and today I was asked how I got so big. Luckily for me I am so much more mentally stronger than I used to be and so this hasn't phased me or deterred any of my progress. I just keep thinking how awesome it will be for them to see me transform over the next several months and that I can finally stop hearing all the comments on how big I am. lol

Sunday, January 22, 2017

3 Weeks!! It's habit time, ya'll.

Hahah... I don't know who says it, but it's been said that if you can stick with something for just 21 days, 3 weeks, it becomes a habit. Well here I am still without sodas and drinking a lot more water than I used to. I am conscious of what I am eating and when I am eating and then what I do with myself after that.

Yesterday I went to a birthday party and I had a tiny bit of cake along with a portioned amount of chips in some nacho cheese with a hot dog. Not the greatest selection, but it was there and I enjoyed it without overindulging myself. They had a buttload of sodas and juices to drink, too but I made sure to have nothing but water. It was a carnival themed party for some long time friends children and I was asked to paint faces. I had a blast and the kids did, too.

My daughter, Bethany

My son, Jett

 There was soooo much food and candy for all the game prizes, but I abstained and turned out no worse for the ware.

This morning I stepped on the scale to see that I am down to 282!

This puts me 11 lbs down from my starting weight 3 weeks ago, but 18 lbs down in total! I am super pumped. lol

I woke up today and got a workout in before taking the kids to church. There is lots of housework and shopping to be done today, too. I am keeping myself busy and it's paying off. :)

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Today was a good day.

I ate well and things came together well for me. My car is working again. Turns out the fix was very simple, though frightening, to find out it was just some bolts that came loose and so we had to spend a few cents on new bolts then tighten them on there good and seal with a thread lock. I was able to get up extra early and catch a ride with my dad this morning to drop off Bethany early and get my college textbooks with 10 minutes to spare before I had to clock in at work this morning, too.

My classes on the other hand are a bit daunting.. there seems to be a lot of work in my near future. The college algebra course I am taking is making my head spin. Ugh... once I think I have one equation figured out it wants to throw a whole different one that takes some sort of other order and its frustrating.

I am still dropping lbs on the daily.. I hit 283 this morning.. looks like I'll reach my second goal real soon. Before the end of the month if I'm lucky. I am getting really excited thinking about being able to fit in to some of my old clothes again. I am glad I kept everything I wanted in a tote haha. It's in storage at my parents house but my dad is remodeling this year and so I need to get back down to those sizes so I can throw out my current stuff and bring the older smaller sizes over to my closet before he needs the space. :D

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Down to the original starting weight.

This morning I saw myself hit 284 which was the highest weight I had seen the very first time I decided to give things a go... I hope to be sailing right on passed this number real soon. :)

Today and yesterday were really great calorie intake days for me and I had an awesome workout last night. Did not get around to working out tonight, too much on my mind. College classes began for me today so I'm trying to figure out what all I have to do in each of my courses. I still haven't got my textbooks yet and am wondering how I am even going to since my car broke last night and that is besides the fact that the bookstore is only open during hours that I work. Ugh...

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Week 2!

Well I keep telling myself I need to find time to post and play catchup, however I am reminded of all the things I haven't shared here yet that I wanted to and get overwhelmed thinking its just too much and so I need to wait until I have enough time to write everything. However, I think that is backfiring because I just haven't posted anything. So here's what I'm thinking... oh well to what you missed. I need to just start logging daily again even if it's short and simple that way at least I can remember the good things I wanted to share or any lows I may have had. The whole point of the blog is to keep me accountable and to share what is or is not working for me so I think it will be better that way.

Anyways, here we are 2 weeks in and this is what the scale reads...

So hooray! I am 8 lbs down in the last two weeks. Not too shabby! I am still very excited to keep trudging along. Still no sodas but my calorie intake has been fluctuating up a bit lately. I am still exercising as much as possible though so that helps. I'm not going crazy overboad with the eating though either. Just eating more when I feel more hungry.

I started taking a Once daily women's vitamin this morning and also a chocolate whey protein shake to help with muscle rebuilding and soreness. I recall taking both before and them being very helpful and I'm doing my best to recreate that much success.

Oh and one important thing I did want to mention was that my son is being homeschooled and since he is required to do at least 30 minutes of exercise each weekday I am finding it easier to make myself get a workout in after dinner during the week because it is during that time he does it along side me and gets his PE done for the day. It's one less thing for my husband to worry about during school time and it's one more thing for me to do to bond with my son. :D

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Still at it

11 days in and I am still at it. Been noticing a lot of good changes and have lots to tell which is why I haven't updated oddly enough. lol. I don't have a ton of time to spend online at the moment but will be sure to post more about what's been going on soon. Just know that I am still on track and making progress! :D

Sunday, January 8, 2017

It's been one week...

since you looked at me
Cocked your head to the side
and said I'm angry

Haha. But seriously, I'm one week in to the new year and my do-over journey. lol.

I bought a battery for my scale on Saturday and popped it in last night. This morning when I checked to see where I was after one week I seen this number.

Down 5.8 lbs in one week

Woohoo! Successfully in to the 280s and staying there. I wasn't sure since those last 2 days I couldn't check. Yesterday I actually ate over my MFP calorie goal and did not workout at all so I was a tiny bit worried. I just wasn't feeling like working out since Jett had a friend over and I had a lot of work to get done anyways. The eating was just because I still felt hungry so I snacked extra. I don't feel guilty about it much. I feel like it's alright to eat more on days when you are more hungry as long as you are binge eating a whole pizza or something crazy. 

Today, I managed to workout once in the morning and once this evening. I also spent most of my day at work redoing my classroom and setting it up how I want it to be since it used to be someone's else's room their name was still on a lot of things too so I changed that sort of stuff around and then made sure I had all my required postiings up on the walls and redid the bulletin board in the hallway that still had Christmas decorations on it.  I should have taken a picture but totally forgot. It's cute though. :)

Saturday, January 7, 2017


That's right... snow here in Texas! It's been a couple years since I last seen any real fluffy white snow around these parts. We started this week a gorgeous 70 degree day out bike riding and now here it is freezing cold already! That's Texas weather for you though. We can experience all 4 seasons in the same day even. Haha. I only wish I had the chance to take pictures but I was at work during the snow. I let my students peek out the door at it though and they all tried to catch snowflakes with their tongue.

I managed to do another workout last night even though I really didn't want to. I felt much better after doing so.

My low battery sign has been flashing on the scale since yesterday morning so I couldn't check my weight yesterday or today. I'm about to head out to the store for a few things though and going to see if I can get a battery for it while I am out.

Thursday, January 5, 2017

First goal achieved!

I did it! This morning when I stepped on the scale I saw myself hit the first goal I set of 289 lbs! It's been over a year since I have seen a number lower than the 290s so this feel pretty amazing. Ignore my ugly chipped nail polish.. but here it is.

My first goal weight has been achieved!
So needless to say my morning started out on the right foot. I was still skeptical about how things at work would go today, but they actually went okay. Day 2 of my new position and so it's still rough around the edges and taking some getting used to, but it helps that the kids already know me and today there were only 10 instead of the 16 I had yesterday. 6 kids make a lot larger difference than it might seem! I was able to teach a lot more of my curriculum without as many interruptions and distractions as the previous day though still not as much as I am supposed to be getting done. Hopefully lessons will come easier to us all as time goes on though.

Last night I mentioned how I might decide to do a workout from Amazon again if I could talk myself in to it but I never actually did. I am okay with that though since I was still exercising in my free time at work. Today I did a lot more exercising during our time in the gym and even did some invisible chair wall squats. The kids got a real kick out of that one and even tried to climb in my lap. hah. Today however I felt great after getting home and having dinner with my family so I went ahead and asked my husband and son to please let me have 20 minutes with the TV even though they already started playing one of the new video games my son got fro Christmas. They finished up their first round and then let me take my turn. It's nice having the support of loved ones. I knew if I waited until after they were done I would just find some other excuse not to do it.

All in all, today was a pretty great day and I am stoked to keep moving forward. I did get asked by a 5 year old if I had a baby in my belly though.. and a 4 year old asked me the same thing yesterday... darn kids. lol

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Pushing forward

So yesterday was my first day back to work and as expected there was the obstacle of not finding time to get a workout done. However, I did manage to exercise while at work. I looked silly lunging around the playground and punching the air in the gym as my kids kept asking me what the heck I was doing, but I feel good about doing more than just standing around. By the end of the day I was worn out already and decided against turning something on to do. I kept up with calorie counting throughout the day and managed to stay close to goal so overall I think that was a success.

Most people will tell you not to weigh yourself every day and obsess over the numbers on the scale. I have always been a daily weigh checker though. To me I find it good info on how my body reacts to different things and I know it will fluctuate up sometimes even in the best of circumstances. This morning I woke up to see that I was 3 lbs down in the last 3 days which leaves me only 1 lb shy from my very first goal of getting under the 290 mark and hitting 289. For the last year now I have not cared a lot about my health and fitness in the sense that I would actively be doing anything but every now and then I would weigh myself just to see if I was climbing up any higher or not. Just about every time I checked myself I was in the 290-300 range. I'm thankful I never got any higher but seemed to just kinda be stuck there so that is why my first goal is to hit the 280s.

Today has been one of the most frustrating days I have had in a long time. I work for a daycare and have been teaching school aged children for over 3 years now. A short time ago I was told they wanted me to take over the Pre-K program at my center and that I would be the prek and schoolers teacher both from January til graduation in June and then I would go back to having my schoolers and doing field trips with them, etc. until August where I would then most likely just be doing Pre-k. Well, if it were just regular pre-k with 4 and 5 year olds it wouldn't be so terrible. However our ratios require them to move kids around and I end up with a class half full of 3 year olds and am finding it impossible to teach any of the curriculum I am supposed to be doing. I know it's only been one day, but its been the first day and so I am thoroughly mentally and physically exhausted. I have just about broke down in tears 3 times today. I am not sure I can do this and I may end up losing my job over this which would be terrible since my husband is currently out of work and I am the only one bringing an income for our family. Now when I first started teaching schoolers I said the same thing about wanting to quit and cry and scream everyday for the first several weeks. Eventually though I got the hang of things and absolutely loved my class. Now that I love my class though they want to move me and I'm just not sure  I can do this. I am going to try of course.. but this is so not the ideal time for me to be having a huge stressful change in my regular stressful job of working in childcare.

Luckily I have not let it get to my eating habits though. I am still counting my calories on day 4 now and am on track as far as that goes. I have not worked out today but I did try to do some more exercise in the gym when I could. I may force myself to do a short workout video before bed tonight. We shall see. I won't be too hard on myself if I don't though because I know the food is what's really helping me lose the most right from the start anyways.

On my lunch break today, 2 coworkers were leaving at the same time as me and going to eat chips and salsa at a local Mexican place. They invited me along but I told them I was trying to save money and also eat better. They said they were too but just weren't going to tell anyone they ate chips and salsa. lol. I have seen them post everyday on Facebook for the last several weeks now about going to the gym together and trying to workout more etc. but here they are eating chips and salsa and trying to sabotage me along the way... I mean I am sure it was unintentional. I just can't let things like that slow me down. I contemplated it for about 10 seconds before I said no thanks and was really pleased with myself for doing so. When I got back they again said how I should have joined them because it was so good, but I am glad that I stuck to my plans instead. I love Mexican food and would have loved to go because my husband does not like it and so we hardly ever eat at those types of places. I still have not had any soda since Friday and have been drinking tons of water each day. I feel good about those choices and am just working to keep pushing forward.

Monday, January 2, 2017

An extra day off

So because the New Year fell on a Sunday, my employer graciously gave us this Monday off and I have been thoroughly enjoying my extra day this weekend.

I woke up this morning and found the same workout routine I did yesterday on Amazon and hit play again. This time my 4 year old daughter, Bethany, was curious as to why mommy had moved all the furniture around in the living room and stood there watching me for a bit. She eventually joined in when she saw familiar moves like jumping jacks and said hey I know how to do those! lol

Later in the day I noticed my kids had spent most of their time inside playing video games while it was a beautiful 70 degrees outside after the storm passed over us early this morning. I made them both get up and join me outside after I aired up my bicycle and my son's. I realized his bike is now way too small for him but about the perfect size for my daughter to start learning on. She gave it a quick try but did not like it much today. I will keep trying though because my son is 8 and still can't ride a bike without training wheels. He does love the scooter he got for his birthday this year though. After raking some things in the yard while the kids played a bit we all decided to go for a walk. Well, my son, Jett, rode his scooter, I was on my bike, and Bethany went for a walk next to us down to the church parking lot about a block from our house. We rode our scooter and bike around for some time while trying to convince Bethany to go play on the slide or something but she did not want to play by herself so she just ran around chasing us in between getting drinks of water from the backpack she brought along. Eventually she needed a potty break so we all hurried back home. Once that was over they went right back outside and began jumping on the trampoline. I wish I had as much energy as the kids seem to. haha

For dinner tonight I made spaghetti with meat sauce and garlic toast. I typically have a huge bowl followed by seconds and then lots of garlic toast, too. This time I measured out one serving for myself with the food scale and only ate that one bowl. I had one piece of toast with my meal but it was too hard to resist eating one half a piece of toast more when it was time to put away all the left overs. I am still proud of myself for the small amount of restraint I did manage though. I made sure to put the leftovers up in several smaller containers instead of one big one so that I already have a good size portion if I want to take some with me to work for lunch some day or just to give some i to the kids at some point. My husband groaned a bit at the thought of that many more dishes, but  I know this will help me make better choices so I think it's worth the extra dishes.

I feel like I have been eating tiny breakfasts and lunches with big dinners for the last couple nights and now that I am aware of this I am going to make it a point to have much larger meals earlier in the day so I have more time to burn those calories. After having everything I did tonight I am going to see about perhaps doing another video or just hopping on the elliptical on our porch.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Back to the basics

Well, here it is a new year again and as cliche as it sounds I am over here thinking a new year a new me.... again.

A lot has happened over the course of the year and a half since my last post.  I am now married along with raising 2 kids, working full time, and attending college full time. You can easily see how I let life get the best of my time and not found myself here or even working out or eating right. I am back up to over my original starting weight and am pretty embarrassed to have let things slide so far.

293.0 lbs

Today I weighed in at 293 lbs, although I did once last year see my highest weight right at 300 lbs on Superbowl Sunday last year. The lowest my weight ever got to was 171 lbs so I never quite made it to my goal of 150 lbs which according to BMI charts would be near the very top of a normal BMI range for my height of 5'5".

Here are my ''before'' pictures taken this morning which will hopefully be followed by many progress and after photos throughout the coming months.

Plenty there to lose... I am going to start calorie counting again since I know that worked before. I am not sure if I will try to do 1200 right off the bat this time though. I may take it easy and start with something like 1800 which I am sure would still be a considerable amount less than my body is currently used to. 

Sweaty but feelin good after my first workout of the year.

This morning I found a beginners workout to stream from Amazon and decided to give it a try.  It was only 30 minutes long but half way through I felt like I was going to puke. I did not expect to feel so out of shape from doing such a basic beginners style workout when I used to be able to do much harder ones on the regular before. I was shocked at how much it winded me but it was a good smack in the face of the reality of my situation. I plan to exercise in some form for at least 30 minutes every day. I may do a home workout video or go for a walk, but I need to get myself moving a lot more regularly that is for sure. 

These are my starting body measurements:

Neck - 16.5"
Bust - 50"
Waist - 47"
Hips - 60"
Arms - 19"
Thighs - 32"
Calves - 20"

Here's hoping the new year brings you good luck and balance to all things in your lives and I look forward to catching up with many of you about how your journeys are coming along.