Making 2014 all about me.

Happy New Year everyone! I know I've been mia for the last month or so but as I mentioned in my last post - working two jobs nearly everyday has me super busy as of late!

That being said, I'm going to start making more time for me. I deserve to have the things I want for myself and if I don't make them happen, no one else will. I'm going to find that little bit of time each day to workout and blog as much as possible about my daily ups and downs. Its what really worked for me in the past and nothing else has really gotten me very far between now and then. I did lose about 25 lbs last year but I'm nowhere near where I want to be yet. I just turned 28 and I want to make the most of the next couple years before I hit my 30s. I feel being at a healthy and happy weight is going to be a major influence on how I spend that time.

As of January 1st I finally decided that nothing was going to get in my way, including myself, so I put my money where my mouth is and became a Beach Body coach and signed myself up for the P90x3 challenge pack. I even paid extra to have it shipped as quick as possible. Hoping it makes it here in the next day or so. :)

In the mean time I have been upping my water intake, decreasing the sodas - diet or otherwise, not giving in to every temptation (admittedly in to more than I should have though), and remembering to think about everything I put in to my body. I also started the 30 day shred again on Wednesday with my 5lb dumbbells. Yesterday I only had a short time before work so I did 10 minutes of various weight exercises with my 10 lb dumbbells. I figured some workout was better than none and today I just finished doing another 30 day shred in between jobs. I'm about to have to head in to the 2nd one in a few minutes...

Over the next couple days, since I only work one of my jobs on the weekends, I'm going to do some more research in to what exactly it means now that I'm a BB coach(besides the discounted shakeology, YUM!), and also get logged back in to MFP and start tracking foods again.

I did take new pictures and measurements on the 1st but haven't had a chance to get themoff my camera yet. I'm sure I'll have those up tomorrow though.

Wish me luck guys, I hope you all find success and happiness in 2014 as well! <3 p="">

Sooo busy!

I realize its been well over a month since my last post but not much has changed in the weight department. I keep teetering from 232 to 233 for the last few weeks now. My bike broke a couple weeks ago and so i haven't been able to use it to get to work and the weather got really bad so I had to start catching rides so there went my exercise... i don't have much time to do anything else since I work so much. I picked up a second job at the beginning of the month and now I cashier at the gas station in the mornings and then work at the daycare in the afternoons. I am the new schoolers teacher and get to be in charge of all the kids who we go pick up in the van from the elementary school nearby. So roughly 25 kids ages kindergarten through 5th grade all to myself for about 4 hours. I have to come up with projects for them to do and games to play in the gym or outside activities when the weather is good, etc. I wanted to quit the first week but I'm glad I stuck with it. Its rough being away from my own kids so much because by the time I get home there is only an hour until bedtime and often they are so worn out from their days they are already asleep when i get home so I try to spend as much time with them as I can when not working. That being said... Happy Thanksgiving everyone and I'm back to enjoy mine with my family! love you all!

Moving on along

So my weight on the scale had kind of come to a stand still for the last 3 weigh ins in a row but today it finally decided to move! I am down over 2 lbs from last week and now under my next goal of reaching 235!  I'm 234.4 this morning.

Also wanted to share a few photos of a couple of the dresses my friend sent and I tried on last Friday but am just now getting around to posting. These are the two that look the best so far and you can see in the first one that really I just need a little less tummy ripple and its great, then the second one I just need to be able to zip it in the back. The red jacket is covering it, but it will feel better once i can zip it all the way to the top. Excuse the cluttered mirror full of old pictures of friends and other people's kids. lol. Also, notice Bethany grabbing at my feet in the last photo. haha

Then just to share my lovely face with you all... here is a picture from Thursday. :D

As far as other things in my life are going... well I honestly had several breakdowns and panic attacks and still wasn't able to eat very well. I was waking up nauseated every single morning unable to eat most of the day so I called my doctor on Monday morning to set up an appt for the nausea symptoms. Once I actually got to see him though I told him what was really going on and what I thought to be the cause was of course stress from the breakup. He was proud of me for admitting that and said most women wouldn't divulge that personal information but he was glad I did since it made diagnosing me so much easier. He feels like I have a peptic ulcer and situational depression so I got prescribed some nausea medicine that I can take as needed, prilosec to fix the ulcer, and zoloft for the depression. I've taken Zoloft once before when my son was just a baby and I had post-partum depression. I was on it for 6 months and it completely changed everything about my life, which was a really good thing. Since I had taken it before with good results he went ahead and let me take that same one again. I started it on Monday and I know it can take a few weeks to really kick in, but I do already feel relief just knowing that I've gone to get help and I'm working on myself again now.

As far as how I feel about losing my relationship, still sad it's over but no obsessing over it anymore. I'm glad that I still have him as a very close friend and great father to my daughter and man to look up to for my son, etc. The only thing that's really changed so far is our title so thinking of it like that makes it a little easier. For now I'm okay, but I know when it comes time for us to eventually start dating new people I'm gonna be jealous of any girl he sees. lol. I'll cross that bridge when we get there though and try not to worry about the future or past even. Just gotta live for right now because you never know how long you've got.