Moving on along

So my weight on the scale had kind of come to a stand still for the last 3 weigh ins in a row but today it finally decided to move! I am down over 2 lbs from last week and now under my next goal of reaching 235!  I'm 234.4 this morning.

Also wanted to share a few photos of a couple of the dresses my friend sent and I tried on last Friday but am just now getting around to posting. These are the two that look the best so far and you can see in the first one that really I just need a little less tummy ripple and its great, then the second one I just need to be able to zip it in the back. The red jacket is covering it, but it will feel better once i can zip it all the way to the top. Excuse the cluttered mirror full of old pictures of friends and other people's kids. lol. Also, notice Bethany grabbing at my feet in the last photo. haha

Then just to share my lovely face with you all... here is a picture from Thursday. :D

As far as other things in my life are going... well I honestly had several breakdowns and panic attacks and still wasn't able to eat very well. I was waking up nauseated every single morning unable to eat most of the day so I called my doctor on Monday morning to set up an appt for the nausea symptoms. Once I actually got to see him though I told him what was really going on and what I thought to be the cause was of course stress from the breakup. He was proud of me for admitting that and said most women wouldn't divulge that personal information but he was glad I did since it made diagnosing me so much easier. He feels like I have a peptic ulcer and situational depression so I got prescribed some nausea medicine that I can take as needed, prilosec to fix the ulcer, and zoloft for the depression. I've taken Zoloft once before when my son was just a baby and I had post-partum depression. I was on it for 6 months and it completely changed everything about my life, which was a really good thing. Since I had taken it before with good results he went ahead and let me take that same one again. I started it on Monday and I know it can take a few weeks to really kick in, but I do already feel relief just knowing that I've gone to get help and I'm working on myself again now.

As far as how I feel about losing my relationship, still sad it's over but no obsessing over it anymore. I'm glad that I still have him as a very close friend and great father to my daughter and man to look up to for my son, etc. The only thing that's really changed so far is our title so thinking of it like that makes it a little easier. For now I'm okay, but I know when it comes time for us to eventually start dating new people I'm gonna be jealous of any girl he sees. lol. I'll cross that bridge when we get there though and try not to worry about the future or past even. Just gotta live for right now because you never know how long you've got.