Wednesday, November 2, 2011

I feel so lazy...

I've just been in this funk it seems ever since getting back from vacation and have barely lost anything at all in the last 3 weeks. I have not been doing my dvd workouts like I used to do everyday. I've just been getting my couch to 5k runs in and that's it. The only other exercise I get it just walking around with Jett or something. I want to just shake myself and say wake up... it's not maintenance time yet. You still have almost 30 lbs to go til goal so don't give up now. I owe it to myself to get there. I know I can do better than what I have so I'm going to do it.

I have gotten 2 days done of week 8 though on the couch to 5k. Tomorrow I will do day 3 and then only one week left!!! I am excited. I haven't accomplished nothing and I should recognize that. Yesterday on my jog, I didnt take my headphones or Jett. I just went alone with my thoughts and eventually let it soak in that I'm about to be running in a race exactly 1 month from tomorrow. At this point in time last year I would have laughed at the idea of someone like me doing anything like that. Now I'm not just gonna dream it, I'm gonna be it. And that realization made me break down and cry. Only for a moment, but it was nice to finally feel myself acknowledging the changes in myself that are more than physical. I keep talking about how I know they exist, but that's just because logically I am smart enough to understand that they do. Not because I actually can feel it all the time. A lot of times it's just too much for me to really grasp, ya know?

I dunno... I just.... I feel.

My eating has not been up to par though lately either. With Aunt Flow here all last weekend and then halloween... ugh.. So much candy and cookies and other bad choices. I've never had so many binges in a row along this journey. Now is not the time to be breaking down, with Thanksgiving right around the corner, followed immediately by my birthday, and then Christmas. I need to whip my ass in to gear right damn now. Enough of this slacking...

I'm going to get up now and turn on my dvd player and do the 30 day shred level 3. I know it's kinda late, but if I don't do it now I just feel like I will keep on procrastinating.


  1. I've been feeling like I'm in a funk too...Lets rock this girl!

  2. Me too Jen! All of October I was a bit 'flat' especially the second to last week. But then, out of nowhere, the motivation came back. Maybe our minds and bodies just need to slow down for a little while?! A 'recharge' moment perhaps... Good job with the realisation of how far you've come!

  3. Thanks guys.. I am feeling better already. I did my workout last night like I said I would and then weighed in this morning at my lowest ever. 176.2! Spent all day cleaning out a room and moving new things in to it and then cleaning up the other room we moved stuff from. got some shopping done today and other things. I ate well. I feel productive! ^_^

  4. I'm so impressed by how well you're doing on the C25K. Well done!!