Monday, January 14, 2013

Reorganizing my life

I'm not sure what it is about this time of year but it just feels so fresh and a time for changing things up. I'm still very pleased with the new look of my blog. It feels more like where I'm at now I suppose. Every time I looked at it lately before the change it just kept reminding me of where I was. I was in a great place then of course but it was a constant reminder to me that I'm not still there with my weight and health in general. I will get back there but in the mean time I don't wanna bring myself down thinking about where I could be by now if I hadn't stopped in the middle to have Bethany. I don't regret that or anything, its just... well hard to explain... but for a person who already has body issues - sharing your body with someone else is really hard. I mean, I'm sure its hard for even the most confident woman. I just think its a different kind of hard for those of us who already got problems. lol. With my first pregnancy I was a smoker before I found out and then took the next day after finding out to pretty much make myself quit and then all throughout my pregnancy I would get these random cravings for a cigarette. My nerves were on edge enough just being a single mother to be, but then when any other kind of emotions crept up on me I'd be a wreck and would be pretty upset with having to share my body. Of course in the end it was all worth it. That wonderful little joy is well over 4 years old by now. This last pregnancy it was more about 'omg you just spent a year working your ass off literally and now you gotta up your calorie intake to care for this new little parasite invading your personal space'. But life is full of little surprises and you can't prepare for everything. If I knew I was going to have a baby in the next year I probably wouldnt have even tried to lose all that so its good we don't know everything. I'm a firm believer in 'everything happens for a reason'. :)

Anyways, I've gotten way off topic. lol. I decided that I need to reorganize things in my life too, not just my blog. Today's goal was to tackle Jett's play room. I moved literally every single thing in that room. I rearranged almost all of his stuff except there is no other place his bed will fit so I left it in the same spot but I did move it out of the way to find all the toys that fell behind it. I picked up every single toy from the tiniest little lego piece to the biggest train table. I threw away anything that was broken. Bagged up everything that needed to be donated and then boxed up anything that he had outgrown but was still something I wanted his sister to have someday. He has so much more space in his toy box now and everything fits in a spot! Yay! Took me literally all day though. I'm glad its finally done. I also talked to him when he got home from school about where I moved everything and that if he made sure to pick up his toys and put everything back before bedtime every night then he would get a 2nd sticker on his reward chart each day. He gets the first sticker for if he was good at school. He had a rough start this school year but after trying several things we finally found that the sticker reward chart worked best. If he got all 5 stickers for the week then we would take him to do something special on the weekend like the park or mcdonalds playplace and sometimes six flags or the zoo. This past weekend he got all 4 (no school monday) stickers and was able to go bowling with my parents on Saturday evening.

Here I am getting sidetracked again though. lol. I loved that fish I had earlier this week so much that I had it again on Saturday. This time I ate parmesan garlic roasted asparagus and garlic butter steamed red potatoes with it. Yummo!


Then last night I made everyone some turkey burgers. I thought they were really thin so I doubled up. I had one slice of cheese and ate it on a whole grain sandwich thin with mustard, pickles, and tomatoes. This was 445 calories. Mmmm...


Tonight I did the great value brand of shake and bake on some frozen boneless skinless chicken breast. I really like the flavor of the great value brand better than the name brand stuff. I had some more of that delicious uncle ben's long grain and wild ready rice and some cut green beans with it. This totaled 340 calories. It was sooo tasty!


And here is a new motivational picture I came across the other day. To me it makes me think that there is always a way if you choose to find it. Nothing is impossible. :)


6 comments:

  1. Same thing happened to me- I had my son in '96. Was at my highest during that pregnancy (251). I got myself down to 208, almost in one-derland, and I found out I was pregnant w/my daughter in Oct. '97. I didn't think of myself as an incubator with precious cargo. Instead I ate way too much of horrible things and gained it all back. FINALLY, I got it, all these years later.

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    1. it can be done! and i shall do it too! lol

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  2. I have a lot of days when I am really upset and frustrated at being pregnant because sharing a body is tough! So inspired by you, Jen. :)

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    1. That sounds so crazy to me since you have been such an inspiration to me. lol. But thank you. That makes my day. :D

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  3. Love the dinosaur pic! And the food looks yummy.

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    1. me too! I want it on a shirt. lol. the food is delish!

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